aaaaaah oh my life i have ONE WEEK left of school. fuck me man im not old enough to go out into the wide world and i hate TDA with a passion but omg im not ready someone take my place you’ll get shit grades but york st john only want three C’s off of you (or 240 ucas points) i feel like im waiting on a rollercoaster and its about to go and i want to get off. i dont want to go somewhere new and make new friends it took four years to get close friends at tda and im terrible at being a human and so so soo awkward i cant have a conversation with people i dont know!!! someone swap. i only wanna go to get away from my parents.
think the runaways are gonna be on the show ima watching :D eek!!!!
(Source: littleappletree, via jeremypaxmanspants)
is it bad that my main reason for uni is to move away from my parents? i know i’ll have to come back but the reason im going is so that they’re not just there constantly nagging at me or making me feel shit about myself, especially my dad he is the worst for that he said that i had ‘thunder thighs like a horses or an elephant’ and that i would ‘get nowhere in life’
think my parents had an argument when i was napping theyre not talking and its really tension-filled in their and my mum shouted that she was ‘alright’. what the hell.
i have a patchy sleeping pattern i dont sleep well at night but now im completely shattered after school i nap but its only for like half an hour and it feels like i am hungover cause i get a weird taste in my mouth and a headache because the nap didnt fulfill the lack of sleep ive had because ive not slept properly since i was 10.
in really bored and lonely i have white wine and smooth legs, i wanna do something but all my friends are at work or with their boyfriends.
i hate it when people say they like a band and then the only song they can name is the ‘most popular’ song of theirs.
my best friend paige is attempting to do ‘self-esteem’ lessons with me which just consist of her taking me to town to try on dresses for prom. its not really working but i feel bad because she’s making such an effort and is so lovely all the time to everyone and me but i hate every inch of me and im dreading prom so much because she and all my other friends are beautiful and i look like meatloaf in the’i would do anything for love’ video and i hate it. the thought of prom is stressing me out more than exams.
the floor man is still in my house but he has dobe the floor and is in my utility doing something but i dont know what and i am v. confused but too scared to look.
